This post started as a small comment on the Britmums Live Facebook page but its somehow become a post (as I was worried that people would think I was a bitt weird...and a it of a moaner...and one of those who fish for compliments) you see I'm starting to feel REALLY REALLY nervous about Friday...like the thought of it makes me feel sick, makes me feel dizzy! I know I shouldn't bother about what people think about me, but I am bothered...
I think it comes from another conference I went to when a bigger blogger asked 'I'M SORRY...BUT WHO ARE YOU?' I know I probably took it the wrong way but it wasn't said in an affectionate way, in fact rather yelled at me in the small group of 4 big bloggers I was stood with and it has knocked my confidence a bit.
It made me feel like a fraud, like I shouldn't have been there, like why was I even in the same room as said blogger let alone at the same conference!
So as we head into the final countdown for the UK's BIGGEST and BUSIEST blogging conference...why should little old me be there...why should I be gracing of some of the biggest bloggers on the block?
Its actually bothering me so much, I'm sat here crying about it and contemplating not going at all....I know, I know....PATHETIC!
I wrote a 'wish list' of people I want to say hi to last night...I probably won't talk to even one of those on my list, scared of what they are going to think of me...scared they will judge me. Scared they will be stood thinking WHO EVEN IS SHE?